Hurt Feelings and Blessings Wished

I was screwing around with the tracking software and I found this reference to my blog:One Step Backward Taken...: I feel better. Now of course this hurts my feelings . . . how could it not? Like all people, in fact probably more than most people, I want to be liked. What is that old 70's song? I want you to want me?

So, it does hurt when I find my work-and my life-being referenced that way. I was all set to send this guy a nasty email, but then I took time to read more of his blog. Seems like he is also a thirty-five year old guy expecting his first child. He also has a strong fondness for porn. I'm not sure, but I think he, like me, sometimes gains a sense of power and strength by putting others down.

To me, it is a little cowardly to slam someone and then: "i took off the http and the com because I don't want this guy tracking me down as the reason for his 6 hits that he'll get this year." But that is his deal, not mine.

I'm thinking about his child. I hope he has a beautiful, healthy baby. I want he and M (his wife, girlfriend, whatever) to have a great life together. I wish them the peace, serenity and prosperity that I want for myself and my little family.

Now I'm turning it over to a Higher Power than myself, because me and my hurt little ego are better off there than in the echo chamber of my head.

Goddess, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (assholes), the courage to change the things I can (my attitude) and the wisdom to know the difference.

You know, today was a pretty good day to be sober.