Doing Much Better Today, Thank You.

I'm working on more photos. I simply have not had time to make the laptop and the desktop communicate and share photo libraries.

I am almost embarrassed by last night's post, but when I started I promised myself I would be honest when I blogged and I pretty much have been. And that is how I honestly felt last night, angry, resentful, selfish and childish. After five hours of uninterrupted sleep, I feel much, much better about the whole daddy thing. In fact, I started to feel better last night after helping Laura sponge bathe Anwen. Laura might be very surprised when she reads these entries. I have been projecting a face of utter confidence to her throughout.

The other thing that helps is that I stopped to pause and pray. That always helps. I kind of have this vision of the Goddess chuckling gently and whispering: and you don't think I haven't had those thoughts about you humans too? And yet I love all of you with a bottomless love that has no name. Keep going Andy, one day at a time and remember: I am always with you. If you are alone and overwhelmed, you can always call upon me. I love you my child; reflect my love upon your daughter and you will do well.

I could use a meeting. The last one I went to was about a week before Laura went in. That is the longest I have been in sobriety without a meeting. Time to change that.

There is also one more tool I have to deal with my frustrations. No matter what happens, no matter how much Anwen cries, not matter what else:

I can always blame the Republicans.

I feel better already.